Healing is scary.
It requires you to look at parts of yourself and your life that may have been kept quietly hidden for a lifetime now.
It urges you to be honest with yourself, to practise trusting your inner wisdom, and to show up for yourself differently than you might be used to.
It asks you to be tender; to hold yourself gracefully instead of mercilessly.
This might be unfamiliar and even impossible at times.
I know it has been for me.
Healing invites you to create new pathways in your brain, new daily habits, and new ways of being with yourself.
This, at times, can be filled with grief.
Grief for not doing it sooner,
Grief for not having someone else do it for you,
Grief for all you didn’t receive,
Grief for the parts of you that didn’t feel you deserved healing until now.
Because of this, healing needs your bravery and forgiveness, your willingness and your desire.
It needs your trust and your patience.
It needs your ability to choose it over and over again, even when it’s dark and you feel lost and unsure.
Healing needs you the most during those times.
Healing insists on your worth.
It declares your capacity to live differently.
It honours your ability to change.
It recognises your incredible goodness, the goodness that life often buries.
Healing knows it’s still there, though.
Healing knows it’s for you.
I want you to honour yourself for choosing to show up in this way.
For choosing to do things differently.
For choosing to try.
For choosing to sift through what hurts in order to find what doesn’t.
It’s a beautiful thing to choose to heal.
As you continue your own journey and keep unfolding the layers of what it means to be fully you, don’t forget to breathe.
To notice how far you’ve already come.
To celebrate the tiny moments.
To rejoice in the now.
To anchor yourself in all that’s possible.
To connect with those who see you.
To practise seeing yourself.
To avoid comparing your journey to the journey of those around you.
There are few who have courage enough to own their past, or resolution enough to mend it.
I’m proud of you.
With so much love,
Jess x